try to keep up

Twilight had her baby in the end of december. she tried to breastfeed and she did, for about a month. she diddnt make it much of a priority tho and when her milk production went down she just switched little brandon to formula. oh well.
baby june is doing wonderful, sometimes she gets in these moods that drive me absolutely insane. she can sit up on her own, and she army crawls. she gets into all sorts of stuff now. its an exhausting, and halarious job chasing her around.

oh how lonely being a stay at home mother is. i love being with june but its so lonely... i want friends as pathetic as that sounds. but i also feel like im unable to have friends. sure its great that twilight has a son now, but we still dont have anything in common. although this is pretty intrusive i read on her myspace that shes smoking pot again. maybe thats why she diddnt care about the whole breastfeeding thing. shit, if i could smoke pot again i would! but june is my top priority, so i havnt smoked since the day i found out i was pregnant.

truth be told. ALL of my old friends are too immature for me anyways, but still i want their approval desperately. i invited starburst and her boyfriend over. but when i did she half dodged the invitation, so i wasnt surprised when they diddnt show.

its annoying how life moves so fast that the people around you cant keep up. shit i can barely keep up but im forced to.