junes first thanksgiving was a sucess. we went and saw my side of the family this year which was good, i hadnt gone and seen them for years. my dad came along and jack drove, its always interesting to see them in the same vicinity. i feel like there is a mild tension between them like im the knot on the middle of a tug of war rope and they both have an end. in years past my dad lost the war, since i was only 15 and i moved out on my own to be with jack. still, they get along for the most part and things are pleasant and civil. visiting my family is a stressfull matter because of the smugness of it all. i hate to say it but they all have an uppidy attiude, that even as a young child i could sence. it is becasue of this, that my dad and i have avoided going to visit every holiday after i moved out. too much stress. we had to leave before their dinner was finnished cooking but we had another meal to attend so it wasnt a big deal. our second meal was at jacks side of the family and it was full of tension also. jacks adopted brother spade and his wife tanna are in the middle of a separation because of a domestic dispute ending in abuse and jail time. the drama continues as jacks mother blue is sided with tanna and refused to eat diner if spade attended. now, as if this isnt already like a weird soap opera... jacks father lionel is going through a separation with blue too and he is so devastated that he does anything he can to please her.... even though she is less than cordial in return. long story short, spade was not allowed to eat dinner with his family. i think thats really sad. " family means loving someone despite their faults " at least that is what i thought.
on a different subject, i got a responce from ariel. good thing i decided against the angry letter! lol it was really random and unexpected and now i am trying not to get my hopes up. she is the definition of hot and cold. and i really dont want her to lead me on this time. i feel so hopeless tho im such a sap. i just need to keep it together.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment